Back to Jan dilemma 

Hey so we had a great celebration for my boys and they both were having lots of fun throughout the party.

Well doc did not release my hubby reason his BP was recorded Low.

Last Friday my hubby Oncology doc visited with ultimate purpose just like Jan time.

She shared how the bile duct had blocked and caused high bilirubin. This issue is likely not going to get better but slowly causing liver failure. 

However Septic is still the main problem that my hubby would be dead from. My hubby has lots of source for infection and he has getting very weak. The tumour itself carries fungal and bacteria. 

Again she mentioned that how the team supported for home TPN despite his terminal condition and they had reached this far for my hubby.

I guessed that she will probably wanted to stop the TPN just like last Feb when surgery failed.

Well I told her we would need to monitor again as we couldn’t make any decision right now.

But in my mind I started to have thought of what she mentioned about tumour carries bacteria too. Then I googled about propolis and cancer. In fact there are studies for propolis that killed cancer cells and one if the Japanese medical oncology who recommends his patients to do treatment complement with propolis 30% purity for 30ml per day to improve the prognosis and treatment efficacy. I like the last sentence of his presentation goes “We have to live with hope”. 

So for the past 3days I had been injecting propolis into my hubby stomach via PEG even in his sleeps. His fever has been progressed from 38 to 39 deg C. There was once his heart rate went up high 170 and he started to be breathless. Doc called me at 12 midnight to inform that he might get cardiac failure and thus organ failure. I asked my helper to infuse lots essential oil to my hubby and asked him to keep breathing. Luckily everything settled after an hour. 

My helper told me afterward that my hubby actually asked the doctor why there was so many people and animal around them? They were shocked and they thought it was the hallucinations. Then my hubby forgot about everything the next day just he recalled he like flew to someplace, like a scientific places. We thought that he actually went afterlife and sent back because Buddha had called. 

Death in Buddhist is very important that we must not follow the wrong path for reincarnation. I did many ritual kind of stuff to hold on my hubby for not to follow the wrong path. We chant every night for his protection. I hope that he could follow only Buddha’s calling. 

We realised that after fever, my hubby is actually feeling much better. He has less pain, lethargic and sleep better. He has off the IV fentanyl and his vital has been improving. He could even watch his Favourite football game now! 

He himself felt that injecting the propolis has improved a lot. Just he complained for the sharp taste. 

He used to drink propolis drink (2ml a day) ever since Jan for fighting the infection and it does help with the prove of WBC count and CRP unit. But now we are injecting 10ml a day and I hope we could inject more. 

So hopefully mon blood results could surprise the Doctors and so they could continue to support us!